Rainy Days... and inner dreams

Emotionally exhausted after a day at school, in 4th period Theater I: I was trying to memorize my monologue but the room got too loud for me to handle, not to mention, my umbrella's handle snapped off...

So after some of my classmates performed, I decided "Screw this" and went up front to perform it. I was so ticked off that I channeled my inner Murdoc and snapped into character (I was to be a rough character, so why not do Murdoc?), exploding my anger and eventually startled/stunned my classmates into dead silence. The teacher simply said to me that I forgot some lines but did a good job with my characterization. I then collapsed onto a nearby couch (The classroom had couches as seats), emotionally tired but relived that the weight went off my shoulders.

Speaking of emotions... I tend to drift off into dreamland once in a while, and Murdoc becomes a sort-of main character in my dreams, acting as my mentor or even a father figure. We were at the roof of Plastic Beach watching the sunset one time, talking about random stuff, and he rested his hand on my shoulder gently, telling me to not let all the negative thoughts go to my head... "That's 'ow people get corrupted by society.". I know there was an artist here that mentioned the same thing as above, but I thought it would be nice to just explain what goes in my head as myself and not as my OC Cade... I still need some rest and hopefully an escape...